No. 11 I felt as if I was drifting

Night went on. I did nothing wrong, so it was hardly possible for me to have a shock like “Finally they’ve found me!” I had confidence about my honest life. I felt much concerned about my parents-in-law and my own mom who were sure to worry about me.
Ignoring my will, the police arrested me, took me to the police station, examined me, jumped to the conclusion that I was a Kakumaru member and detained me. While I thought there must be a mistake, the police didn’t. No one was likely to listen to me. I was held down by brute force, and couldn’t fight back at all. I was not motivated to present my counterarguments. I just didn’t have it in me to think of the reason why I was arrested.
All that I was asked in the interrogation room were about JREU. As I was little interested in union activities then, the questions were not particularly close to me. I wondered why I was asked so relentlessly. If I wanted to have someone to ask for advice or help, I was not allowed to see anyone. I couldn’t understand at all why I was arrested by the police who, I considered, were friends of just causes.
I felt as if I was drifting and passing around on a conveyor belt which I was forced to ride. If I didn’t feel so, I couldn’t have borne what happened to me. I didn’t know where I was going. My last hope was “I can go back in a few days.” When did I fall asleep?